Losing Mom: A Journey Through Grief (Part 13)
February 14, 2022 - One and a Half Years H ow has it been so long since you died? I’m sure in no time it will be the 5 year anniversary, and in the blink of an eye the 10 year will be upon us, and I’ll really be asking that question in disbelief. But we’re not there yet, we’re only to 1 1/2 years, and that’s still incredibly difficult to grasp. You were JUST here, I swear. I could’ve last hugged you yesterday, but somehow it’s been far far longer than that. And tomorrow it’ll be another day longer. I’m not quite sure how to deal with the concept of time surrounding your death. Or in general, but especially this. Some days I think I’m actually doing pretty okay. Other days, both anniversary days and mundane days, I am not. I have found in my grief journey that too very juxtaposing things can exist simultaneously. I didn’t always used to believe that, but experience has proven it true. I am both happy and sad. I feel both peace and anger. I am neither healed nor shattered. I don’t thin