Time: Simultaneously Fleeting and Forever
I had recently posted on all Sarah's Inscriptions social media accounts (you can follow them in the top right corner, or find them on my Contact page) that I was recently hired into a second job and would be rather busy - in other words, too busy for regular posts. But it has been brought to my attention, by my own mind, that the entire concept has sort of just been an excuse.
In fact, I knew it was when I posted it.
I have free time. Even working 2 jobs, I have an incredible amount of free time. You would think I would do something with it, or act grateful for it, or know how to utilize it. But the truth is, I don't. It's not that I couldn't actively work to figure it out - to ask friends if they wanted to hang out, to run some errands, schedule some me time, read a book (better yet, write my own), volunteer, exercise, meal prep for said jobs, literally do anything at all.
Instead, I come home and I do absolutely nothing. I watch YouTube videos, or watch TV, or take care of my laundry. But nothing groundbreaking or productive.
You see, something I have been considering lately is the concept of time. It is simultaneously fleeting and forever. We could be gone tomorrow and the clock will keep on ticking. The earth could die in 100 years and the sun and planets would still rotate around each other, completely oblivious to the human demise.
We, humans, in this society today are exceptional at placing the blame of things on everything else, even time, other than themselves. "I wasn't meant to have that job at this time." "He and I didn't work out, the timing wasn't quite right." Etc., etc., what have you. But an inanimate thing cannot dictate or define your life. You work hard toward achieving that dream job. And if you're not hired, it's not the timing, I'm sorry to tell you, but rather something in your resume or your presentation that didn't necessarily click with that specific employer. You're more than likely to still find a job, but not from them. That's not timing, that's personal opinion and taste. A relationship works out because two people are at the same level emotionally. They want the same things, they have strong feelings for each other, they could never imagine not being with them. Etc., etc., what have you. The only way relationships don't work out is if work isn't being put into them. Not timing, not life, not an impending fear or a current hardship or that mercury is in retrograde. It's literally on you. And if two of you are not together it's either because someone didn't care for the other that deeply, or someone didn't put in the same amount of effort as the other.
And I don't mean to type all of this negatively or in anger. In fact, I found these realizations to be some of the most profound and impactful of my life thus far.
A college professor once told our class that we can always place the blame on other people or things, but are wrong in doing so. Another person's actions did not cause us to become angry, we chose to be angry over nothing, but we're blaming it on their actions. I don't know if I'm explaining that well, but hopefully you understand what I'm saying.
We are all in charge of our own lives, minds, destinies, futures, pasts, presents, dreams, what have you. We are in charge of deciding where we want to go and choosing how we're going to get there. It is not up to the universe, or time, another person, your dog Buddy, the mailman, literally nothing and nobody but yourself.
It seems as though humans have become so immune to self-responsibility, that blame is so easily cast upon others and accepted, without much evidence at all.
We should all be standing up for ourselves and our abilities. How we treat people versus how people deserve to be treated. How often we blame versus how often we accept. How often we apologize versus how often we say "thanks".
People may often misuse your time, you may even misuse your own or another's. But please, stop blaming your right now on the time. Stop blaming it on the people you continue to let walk on you. Stop blaming it on strangers choices that you let affect you. Blame yourself. Take responsibility. Explain to people the damage they're doing, and if they don't see it, cut them off. Ignore the doings of complete strangers whose decisions have absolutely zero impact on your life at all. Realize your own inability to utilize every moment you have, rather than complaining that they're all fleeting.
Because they are, but they seem to move a hell of a lot faster when you let them go.
Hold onto your time tightly, like you would a child or a lover, and appreciate all that which it has to offer you. Not before it's gone, but before you are.
With love,
Sarah
In fact, I knew it was when I posted it.
I have free time. Even working 2 jobs, I have an incredible amount of free time. You would think I would do something with it, or act grateful for it, or know how to utilize it. But the truth is, I don't. It's not that I couldn't actively work to figure it out - to ask friends if they wanted to hang out, to run some errands, schedule some me time, read a book (better yet, write my own), volunteer, exercise, meal prep for said jobs, literally do anything at all.
Instead, I come home and I do absolutely nothing. I watch YouTube videos, or watch TV, or take care of my laundry. But nothing groundbreaking or productive.
You see, something I have been considering lately is the concept of time. It is simultaneously fleeting and forever. We could be gone tomorrow and the clock will keep on ticking. The earth could die in 100 years and the sun and planets would still rotate around each other, completely oblivious to the human demise.
We, humans, in this society today are exceptional at placing the blame of things on everything else, even time, other than themselves. "I wasn't meant to have that job at this time." "He and I didn't work out, the timing wasn't quite right." Etc., etc., what have you. But an inanimate thing cannot dictate or define your life. You work hard toward achieving that dream job. And if you're not hired, it's not the timing, I'm sorry to tell you, but rather something in your resume or your presentation that didn't necessarily click with that specific employer. You're more than likely to still find a job, but not from them. That's not timing, that's personal opinion and taste. A relationship works out because two people are at the same level emotionally. They want the same things, they have strong feelings for each other, they could never imagine not being with them. Etc., etc., what have you. The only way relationships don't work out is if work isn't being put into them. Not timing, not life, not an impending fear or a current hardship or that mercury is in retrograde. It's literally on you. And if two of you are not together it's either because someone didn't care for the other that deeply, or someone didn't put in the same amount of effort as the other.
And I don't mean to type all of this negatively or in anger. In fact, I found these realizations to be some of the most profound and impactful of my life thus far.
A college professor once told our class that we can always place the blame on other people or things, but are wrong in doing so. Another person's actions did not cause us to become angry, we chose to be angry over nothing, but we're blaming it on their actions. I don't know if I'm explaining that well, but hopefully you understand what I'm saying.
We are all in charge of our own lives, minds, destinies, futures, pasts, presents, dreams, what have you. We are in charge of deciding where we want to go and choosing how we're going to get there. It is not up to the universe, or time, another person, your dog Buddy, the mailman, literally nothing and nobody but yourself.
It seems as though humans have become so immune to self-responsibility, that blame is so easily cast upon others and accepted, without much evidence at all.
We should all be standing up for ourselves and our abilities. How we treat people versus how people deserve to be treated. How often we blame versus how often we accept. How often we apologize versus how often we say "thanks".
People may often misuse your time, you may even misuse your own or another's. But please, stop blaming your right now on the time. Stop blaming it on the people you continue to let walk on you. Stop blaming it on strangers choices that you let affect you. Blame yourself. Take responsibility. Explain to people the damage they're doing, and if they don't see it, cut them off. Ignore the doings of complete strangers whose decisions have absolutely zero impact on your life at all. Realize your own inability to utilize every moment you have, rather than complaining that they're all fleeting.
Because they are, but they seem to move a hell of a lot faster when you let them go.
Hold onto your time tightly, like you would a child or a lover, and appreciate all that which it has to offer you. Not before it's gone, but before you are.
With love,
Sarah
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